Just go, C!
I'm Charity, a proud auntie, wine lover, semi-nerd, and dreamer who can't stay in one place for too long.
First, let me apologize for that terrible blog title. Let me also apologize for not changing it, even though I know it's terrible.
So, my time in Australia is coming to an end. Only 1.5 weeks remaining in this crazy, crazy country. I'll do my farewell tribute blog entry to Australia, I'm sure, when I'm on my flight out. I just want to make sure I don't die here first. Because it's completely possible in Australia. Anything - and I mean anything - is possible in Australia. As you probably know already if you're following along, I'm headed to Thailand next. I am going to be very honest with you and say that I am scared to go to Thailand. I'm scared because English is not widely spoken there, and this will be my first experience in such a country. I'm scared that I'll go through the TESOL course and have a difficult time finding a job. And most of all, I'm scared to go to Thailand as an overweight woman. I know I know, it IS rather unfortunate to feel this way, but this blog (for me, at least) is all about being vulnerable and being honest, as much as it is about traveling and seeing the world. And so, I am being honest. I know already that Asian women are typically smaller in build. What I didn't know until recently is that many plus-sized gals have experienced some scrutiny and unwelcome comments when traveling to SE Asia. It is also very difficult to find clothing over size "large" - and I say "large" in quotes because it sounds like anything over a woman's size 8 is considered "large" over there. And as someone who has struggled with body issues her entire life, this is definitely cause for anxiety. While I was reading all of these stories online, I felt sick to my stomach and my FIRST thought was, "I've gotta back out of this. I can't do this. I can't handle someone pointing at me and making a comment about my weight." I was seriously in a panic. I know myself well enough to know that my gut reaction is always emotional, and after a while I'm able to reflect on the situation from more of a rational standpoint. First, if they do make fun of me, I probably won't know it because they'll be speaking a language that I don't (yet) understand. Second, these bloggers' experiences don't guarantee that the same thing will happen to me. Thousands of people visit Thailand every year, many of them probably overweight, and I'm reading what, maybe 7 or 8 blogs? Third, I am willing to bet that I'm going to lose weight anyway over there without really even trying. Most of the people eat the local street food. The food is MUCH fresher, in smaller portions, locally-sourced, with simple ingredients. Most of weight loss is what you eat so I should be good there. And, getting around is going to require some effort. Most people take public transport, ride a bike, or walk. And, I'll have to go up and down stairs for my month-long course. I'll have to be more active whether I like it or not. (Thankfully, I'm actually looking forward to being more active.) And because it's so hot there, I will probably sweat out most of the calories, anyway. Ha! One thing I'm constantly learning about and trying to improve upon is my intention. I really do believe that once you commit to something, 100% with your full heart and soul, that some pretty incredible things happen in the universe to help make it happen for you. Call it God or the powers-that-be or the law of attraction, whatever it is, I have experienced firsthand the power of intention and the results it can bring. I am definitely going to Thailand. I am definitely going to follow through on my commitment to complete the course I signed up for. I am going to be open to any experiences, whether they are successes or lessons. I'm proud of myself for not backing out. I really believe in my core that this will be exactly what I need, at exactly this time in my life. I am still nervous and scared, of course. But just as I've said from Day 1, that's exactly why I'm doing it. Even still - feel free to say a little prayer for me.
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Jenn Lake
2/11/2017 06:40:40 am
I love, love, love the title!!! I'm glad you didn't change a thing. I'm so excited to hear about your adventures in Thailand and all the promise this new experience holds for you!!! It's going to be amazing!
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Charity
2/11/2017 04:37:19 pm
Thank you, m'lady! I was just thinking about you the other day wondering how your adventures were going. I'm excited to share more with you!! Really appreciate your support.
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Jennifer Blanks
2/11/2017 11:44:19 am
I just love your post. Just this morning I was thinking there is no hope for weight loss. I was thinking I hate the struggle. Without even meaning to you inspired me to continue pushing myself 100%. I just love you. I will pray for safety for you, I will continue to pray you be blessed along the way with provision, joy, self-discovery, and a ton of laughs. Xoxo
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Charity
2/11/2017 04:41:34 pm
Ahhh my Jen!! How I've missed you! I'm glad this provided value to you. The struggle is almost always a blessing even if it takes a long time to see it that way. For you and me, it's about choosing to love ourselves exactly as how and who we are. You are an incredible woman. If we can achieve that, everything else will fall into place. I appreciate your prayers so much and thank you for being with me on this journey!
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Corinna
2/21/2017 05:42:36 pm
You've got this, C! I absolutely believe in the power of intention, and I have witnessed a shift in you even before you left the states. Although we weren't in regular contact, I saw it in you. Please be kind and accepting of yourself and the rest will come into place. Whatever shape or size we are, whatever language we speak or from where we hail, we are all energy and human (except the aliens of course). And even they probably share the same universal energy! Sending you love! 😘
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Bela
3/4/2017 06:13:06 pm
I think the title is freaking hilarious. You are a hilarious person.
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